I Believe

May 13 cont...

I'd passed the halfway mark.

The reason I undertook this adventure was because I didn’t believe in myself. I knew this journey would test me on every level and that if I did it, there would be no excuses not to believe in myself any longer.

When the going got tough, I knew I could reflect on this day and get strength from it, knowing that I would always get through.

If someone had told me that morning what I was going to be faced with, I would have sidled with my back against the wall along that tunnel, feeling with my hands, rather than go through the ordeal I went through.

Now I understood what Joseph Campbell meant when he said that the Hero gets the journey he is ready for. I wasn't a Hero but I did start this trip knowing I was setting myself up for quite a journey and that trial felt like an initiation...

TEXTS...

EL to SMG: Hey S - Just got through the most harrowing experience yet! Got lost in rain in forest by myself with no cell phone coverage. My strength was a revelation 2 me...

SMG to EL: Holy Fuck. While here in NZ all those you know are easing down to another early Saturday evening, you are being tried - and succeeding - through a life and death challenge. I am staying at home from 2 parties , listening to Bach and putting up a bookshelf...

EL to SMG: What I would do for a Bachfest right now!

RT to EL: Yr reality snds surreal & v much th travellr experience of being trappd in yr own archetype...